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Preacher

Preacher

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fuck you guys make me sad, I hate you for it...... My dad....... well, he drank himself to death before my eyes. He wasn't the best father but he loved his grandchild soo much, they use to spend most breakfasts together (I lived up the block) eating ice cream and shit..... I never cryed for my dad, not even at the funeral, He never cared if he died or not, I use to get into huge fights with him over his drinking.... he went to AA and it did fuck all for him. Cause he never wanted to quite 45 yrs young. I sat in the hospital by his side all night the day he told me he was going to die..... just me and him he finally held my hand within the last hour of his death and I said your granchildren (he had 2 on the way within that month, and my daughter was 4) will miss you very much you selfish bastered. He shed a tear and died.....................

Its funny he was never there much for my brother and I but he did everything for his granddaughter. Not saying he was a bad dad just not always there....

My Mom I have to force to see her grandchildren she always says she just too buys to see them.........

OK who openend this fucking thread........... This sucks balls....
 
FTW

FTW

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fighteveryone said:
i'm arranging something with J2DM for sunday i hope. we're just settling a place right now. we're gonna grab lunch and bullshit. make it a frikken party we should (sans the drugs).

and for the record you guys were the FIRST people i opened up to and told that i relapsed. i knew that because out of everyone in my life you'd be the only dudes who wouldnt tell me i'm a complete waste of life and fucked up everything like my closest friends and family. you guys have a sense of brotherhood understanding that goes beyond my own brothers who have disowned me. shit that means a lot.

and Phreezer is dead on.

PE is right, i came here to vent and let go. i wanted to hear support rather than constant berrating like im getting from my peers and fam now. and all ive gotten thus far is support from you hammerheads. that's frikken awesome. my PM box is overflowing daily. guys living cross country telling me they'll meet me or pick me up. holy shit.
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Buddy i want the old FE1 back that is funny, happy and content. If you want me to be perfectly honest with you. I could care less about your size or how much material things you have. I would be the same way if it was Ronnie Coleman i was talking to.

Thx for not being plastic and being honest. Just because of those traits i have alot more respect for you as a person. Now its up to you to be true to yourself and live up to your screen name and Fighteveryone including your demons.
 
FTW

FTW

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purevi1 said:
Their are to many bi-curious guys on this board(FTW) to go camping with
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Ok Ok Ok ,,, i just talked w/ S7v7n and he told me he would try and teach me how to become a full blown flaming faggot if that is want you really want.;)

Dont be hatin on the bi-curious because there is still hope we could put a purevil ass fucking on another man.:p Just because you wrote the book dont mean the student cant never become the teacher.:D
 
d-red

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juiced2damax said:
I talked to him this morning on myspace and trying to get him to coordinate a time and place as to where to meet up...I hope he can get it together and tell me where to go to find him.
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very good. i`m happy to hear this. you`re a great guy for driveing all the way there,bro.
 
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purevi1

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FTW said:
Ok Ok Ok ,,, i just talked w/ S7v7n and he told me he would try and teach me how to become a full blown flaming faggot if that is want you really want.;)
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LOL now that is funny


FTW said:
Dont be hatin on the bi-curious because there is still hope we could put a purevil ass fucking on another man.:p Just because you wrote the book dont mean the student cant never become the teacher.:D
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first off spell my name right and then well address your student teacher fallacy.
 
s7v7n

s7v7n

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FTW said:
Ok Ok Ok ,,, i just talked w/ S7v7n and he told me he would try and teach me how to become a full blown flaming faggot if that is want you really want.;)

Dont be hatin on the bi-curious because there is still hope we could put a purevil ass fucking on another man.:p Just because you wrote the book dont mean the student cant never become the teacher.:D
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Just cause I can suck a dick better than any one of you flaming gapping assholes, don't hate. You hear FTW...you hear. If you wanna be taught you listen up biotch!
 
FTW

FTW

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s7v7n said:
Just cause I can suck a dick better than any one of you flaming gapping assholes, don't hate. You hear FTW...you hear. If you wanna be taught you listen up biotch!
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Ohhhhh goodnessss, i feal the force is about to grow strong in this one.;)
 
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Baldspot

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PJ,

Only you can fight these demons sir, but just know that many of us here all sincerely hope for the best for you.

I have seen the end result of addictive personalities. I worked at a maximum security prison for 6 years. I have seen some pretty sad people who made poor choices in life. I have had many discussions with some, even got to cut one down that hung himself and did CPR for 30 minutes waiting on the paramedics.(no, he didn't make it) Seeing you post in this manner reminds me of some of these past conversations. You seem to be dwelling on the past, as if you can change it. The more you focus on the past, the worse your future will become. Please, Please FOCUS ONLY ON TODAY. Get in rehab, get help, and focus on the future. If you cannot find a single reason to do so, then keep logging on here, and do it for us.

I am reminded of a few quotes I have seen in the past at various times -

Lose your wealth and you've lost nothing.
Lose your health and you've lost something.
Lose your character and you've lost everything.
Ben Lapadula

A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his opportunities.
An optimist is one who makes opportunities of his difficulties.
Harry S. Truman

Please PJ, get help, get better and get on with your life.

Steve.
 
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juiced2damax

juiced2damax

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Steve-O said:
PJ,

Only you can fight these demons sir, but just know that many of us here all sincerely hope for the best for you.

I have seen the end result of addictive personalities. I worked at a maximum security prison for 6 years. I have seen some pretty sad people who made poor choices in life. I have had many discussions with some, even got to cut one down that hung himself and do CPR for 30 minutes waiting on the paramedics.(no, he didn't make it) Seeing you post in this manner reminds me of some of these past conversations. You seem to be dwelling on the past, as if you can change it. The more you focus on the past, the worse your future will become. Please, Please focus ONLY ON TODAY. Get in rehab, get help, and focus on the future. If you cannot find a single reason to do so, then keep logging on here, and do it for us.

I am reminded of a few quotes I have seen in the past at various times -

Lose your wealth and you've lost nothing.
Lose your health and you've lost something.
Lose your character and you've lost everything.
Ben Lapadula

A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his opportunities.
An optimist is one who makes opportunities of his difficulties.
Harry S. Truman

Please PJ, get help, get better and get on with your life.

Steve.
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Great post steve...I hope I get to see you on Sunday bro, please try and get a hold of a phone to call me and confirm plans...Please don't make me drive down to the city and aimlessly look for you. Stay in contact brother!
 
FTW

FTW

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Phreezer said:
I'm sure I'll sound like a dick here (big suprise coming from me)... but FE isn't going to stop or change until he's ready... You can try to make him do what's right, you can try and coddle him along and hope he does what's right... but truth is.. He isn't going to stop.. He'll only hide what he's doing better..

My old man was/is a pill poping drunk. The town drunk in fact. I come from a small midwest town (Less than 1,000 people) and everyone in town knew my pops was the town drunk. In just the last ten years he's had 5 DUI's. He's been arrested 3 times for domestic battery and assault, agg assault, criminal threat and violation of restraining anti-stocking laws. (Three different women three different restraining orders). He doesn't work. Mooches off my 80 year old grandmother... I watched this guy give up a wife and three children (myself included) for booze and whatever pills he could swindle a doctor out of. He's lost about 50 jobs from drinking too much. He's been to rehab 5 times. Been to jail about 30 times.. and he doesn't give a fuck. He'd rather sleep in a tool shed and have his pills and booze than live in a house and be sobber.

This man picked booze and pills over his own kids.

We haven't spoken in years but last time we did talk (Keep in mind I'm about 30 yrs old) I asked why he does this stuff. ANd he looked me square in the face and said it was all our fault. That we were the ones with the problem and not him. He was just having a good time... and that if we hadn't rode him things would have been fine. He blames my mom for all the black eyes he gave her.. He blames all his girl friends for all of thiers.. At this point I just walked and away and never went back... And this happened when I was in my middle twenties... this was after a lifetime of growing up broke ass pour and having my ass kicked over and over as a kid for sometimes something as simple as the tv being too loud.. I could write a novel on what my life was like.. but nobody would really be that interested.. lol

anyway, My point is this... FE1 can't be talked into anything.. can't be shown what's right.. He's going to do what FE1 wants to do.. and come hell or high water no one will change that. I know, I speak from experience. I speak from being on the other side of an addicts drug and alcohal abuse.

This is something I bet a lot of you didn't know about your ol pal phreezer..
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Man out of all the years i have known Phreezer this may be his best post yet. Not because its a sad story but a story about overcoming the odds and setting your goals higher and achieving them. Even though we have bumped heads a few times I have always respected Mr Phreezer even if we didnt see eye to eye on things. After reading this and thinking about how you turned a bad past around and learned from others mistakes rather than genetically taking on those traits i gota take my hat off to ya.

The quote MFL gave on Meso many moons ago will alawys stick with me and that quote was:
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery
BUT today is a gift!

I dont even want to reflect back on my past but it was nothing to be proud about, rather than the fact I lived and learned threw it.

Also I didnt know that was you when you were a member that was the other person that didnt want hardcore destructive rec drug to be allowed on Meso. There were plenty other sites to go if you wanted to get dope rather than on a bodybuilding board. Damn that was so long ago i cant even remember your original screen name.

Back to the main topic,,,most of us were all dealt shitty hands but rather than fold them we played them out day by day. As long as you have hope then all is not lost. Like i have always said hope dies last. That was also my famous last words before Phreezer beat me down in a chess game:rolleyes: , but if he thinks i have not been practicing and making my game better then its to my advantage if we play again.;)
 
d-red

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juiced2damax said:
I talked to him this morning on myspace and trying to get him to coordinate a time and place as to where to meet up...I hope he can get it together and tell me where to go to find him.
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juicey-juice...i`d be glad to send some funds to you to help pay for gas and time.???

that way is goes toward helping.:)
 
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purevi1

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dont hold you breath, looks like hes been lost to the dark side..... Its on him to get better. Like I said all we can do is help show him the way its up to him if he wants to take the advice but doesnt look like he wants it
 
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