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[swede74]

Its not about you though, its about getting the people you owe squared away. I want you to get back on your feet but I also want guys to get what they are owed. You can always pay me back later.(no sexual favors though LOL)

This is a tough one...some of you guys may know that I work with people in the community with substance abuse problems. I'm willing to "donate" some money to those that you owe, only to prevent some people from potentially posting any personal info they have of yours. If I help you out, PE helps you out, consider it a loan. I would just rather have you owe us than other people.

FE1, the good thing in all this is that you've hit rock bottom pretty damn quick. You obviously don't fuck around Bud, it's time for a rehab, you know this more than anyone right now. If you want I can talk to some contacts I have and try to find a decent program in your area. Your better than all of this.

 

[s7v7n]

Sorry to hear all this man - but shit happens. I have been in situations just as worse as you (not with drugs though, but with personal family issues, who left me on the street)....get off your ass, get cleaned up, and show everyone you aren't the fuck up they think you are right now...SIMPLE

 

[Eleven11]

Saw this coming from a mile away.
I hope Im wrong.
So your going to destroy you life over an ex-girlfreind. You dont know what pain and loss is. grow up, sorry to be so cold but you need it...................11

 

[thick]

yep speaking with FTW on yahoo and just wish he would listen to some of us older fuckers on how minor losing a gf really is

Saw this coming from a mile away.
I hope Im wrong.
So your going to destroy you life over an ex-girlfreind. You dont know what pain and loss is. grow up, sorry to be so cold but you need it...................11

 

[fighteveryone]

This is a tough one...some of you guys may know that I work with people in the community with substance abuse problems. I'm willing to "donate" some money to those that you owe, only to prevent some people from potentially posting any personal info they have of yours. If I help you out, PE helps you out, consider it a loan. I would just rather have you owe us than other people.

FE1, the good thing in all this is that you've hit rock bottom pretty damn quick. You obviously don't fuck around Bud, it's time for a rehab, you know this more than anyone right now. If you want I can talk to some contacts I have and try to find a decent program in your area. Your better than all of this.

i only owe shit to two people on the boards... and when asked where to send their stuff they havent responded. the one that did is being very understanding and knows im not scamming. just some local scrubs are who i owe a good deal to. and they wont do shit to me.

yeh i hit bottom (not rock bottom) quick. that's how i roll i guess. classic case of why i CAN'T even have one drink. a sip leads to a snort and then to a spike in a matter of days. horrible, but reality for me. my progression into this was like i never even stopped. its true you pick up right where you left off.

listen, i appreciate everyones words and i know i'm being a complete asshole by not taking advice and following through with all your experience and help. all your support means the world to me. ive got a lot of people pulling for me right now... unfortunately my own family has completely given up. hearing, seeing you guys rising to the occasion for me is seeing light at the end of the tunnel even when everything right now is black. but unfortunately addiction for me is not as easy as you think. my last bender which was 6 years ago landed me comatose in a hospital for 13 days. i only hope that i don't end up there but "rock bottom" really is "rock bottom" for this guy. getting in trouble with parents, losing money, losing home, losing everything physical is not enough for me. i'll be ready when i'm ready.

like i said its not about the girl at this point. it's about the disease, the addiction, the sickness, the lifestyle. and although im using "disease" as a crutch for me actions... i'd like to see anyone on here try to just stop heroin/coke cold turkey without a question and wihtout complication thereafter. i consider myself a tough fucker and i've been through much worse shit than this. but right now, in this moment... it's just hard to bring myself to do what i SHOULD be doing.

i'm going to keep posting on here. if anything to let you fruitcups know i'm alive. i'll find a computer no matter what. i can promise you that much.

 

[Vicious Cycle]

i only owe shit to two people on the boards... and when asked where to send their stuff they havent responded. the one that did is being very understanding and knows im not scamming. just some local scrubs are who i owe a good deal to. and they wont do shit to me.

yeh i hit bottom (not rock bottom) quick. that's how i roll i guess. classic case of why i CAN'T even have one drink. a sip leads to a snort and then to a spike in a matter of days. horrible, but reality for me. my progression into this was like i never even stopped. its true you pick up right where you left off.

listen, i appreciate everyones words and i know i'm being a complete asshole by not taking advice and following through with all your experience and help. all your support means the world to me. ive got a lot of people pulling for me right now... unfortunately my own family has completely given up. hearing, seeing you guys rising to the occasion for me is seeing light at the end of the tunnel even when everything right now is black. but unfortunately addiction for me is not as easy as you think. my last bender which was 6 years ago landed me comatose in a hospital for 13 days. i only hope that i don't end up there but "rock bottom" really is "rock bottom" for this guy. getting in trouble with parents, losing money, losing home, losing everything physical is not enough for me. i'll be ready when i'm ready.

like i said its not about the girl at this point. it's about the disease, the addiction, the sickness, the lifestyle. and although im using "disease" as a crutch for me actions... i'd like to see anyone on here try to just stop heroin/coke cold turkey without a question and wihtout complication thereafter. i consider myself a tough fucker and i've been through much worse shit than this. but right now, in this moment... it's just hard to bring myself to do what i SHOULD be doing.

i'm going to keep posting on here. if anything to let you fruitcups know i'm alive. i'll find a computer no matter what. i can promise you that much.

It would appear that your mind is already made up. Best of luck in all your future en devours.

-VC-

 

[s7v7n]

It would appear that your mind is already made up. Best of luck in all your future en devours.

-VC-

Sadly....I agree....

 

[FTW]

Well you are right about those who dont know how hard it is to quit coke realy is. I would guess that H is even worse. I wish i could say i was one of those that never faced that demon but i did and won a battle but still fight a war.

I am not gona pester you anymore if your content in the direction you are going. When you do smack the wall and are lucky enough to live threw it i hope you have enough common sense to think about those who do care for you then.

Just one final thing, if you do kick out and leave this world I hope you find the peace you are looking for and i also hope your ex girl and family dont put the blame on thereself for your loss. More than likely they will and your pain can continue long after you gone ,but it will be pushed onto somebody else because you were selfish.

 

[purevi1]

BRO im willing to help You, drop everything I will get you on a flight out here tonight, and get you into a a local rehab that helped a friend of mine. Honestly though after 6 years of sobriety the last 2 weeks have been ridiculous. For being such a tough guy wheres your fucking will power?

LMK if you want my help. If not the best of luck to you because if you keep on the road you say your on you will be dead or in prison soon. Let me tell you those 2 options seem pretty fucking stupid. Seems like 2 weeks ago you had a job,you had a house, you had a supporting family, you were the almighty owl master, your dad was hooking you up with a hot chick, and you were in great shape. Now youd rather be some loser that has no home, no family, horrible health with all the shitty drugs that your putting in your body, seems to me you have no positives in your life besides getting high. And your supposive druggie friends are not friends, because friends dont let friends hit rock bottom.

Everyone ON MU is willing to help so why dont you stop being fucking dumb and take it.

 

[purevi1]

MAYBE we should put you on that show intervention

 

[thick]

yeah so called friends is key. Anyone doing drugs with FE arent fucking friends. Thats for sure

 

[d-red]

purevi1.....YOU ARE ONE STAND-UP GUY for offering to take care of the unfininshed business on the boards!!!!!!!

fight.....keep posting .....so we know you`re alive. you`re telling us about it.......BUT WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO?????????

you slept in you car? thats bad.

i stopped coke cold turkey. it sucked. and was all i thought about for MONTHS!!!!!!!

sooo...what are you gonna do????? really??????

 

[d-red]

and of course i`d donate $$ or time or gear to help you

 

[s7v7n]

Purevil1.....you have said it like it is....and I think you are a stand up guy for that. We need him to stop thinking so selfish and let us help him.

....BTW he hasn't posted in a while...

 

[purevi1]

We need him to stop thinking so selfish and let us help him.

Cant force someone to do the right thing you can only show them the way

 

[s7v7n]

Cant force someone to do the right thing you can only show them the way

Fo shizzle....dizzle.

 

[-MU-]

Holyshit I have been out of the loop....FE1 pull your head out of your ass and get your life straight.... All this over and Ex ??? It's simply not worth it.....Have more respect for yourself brotha. I know it can be tough I have been there but I did not lay down and die, you got to move forward. You need to remember that their are people out there with way worst situations than yours, and they get up everyday and face it with strength......Come on man, get with it.

PE1 your character blows me away man.....Much Respect. We need more people like you in this community.

 

[Finisher]

i only owe shit to two people on the boards... and when asked where to send their stuff they havent responded. the one that did is being very understanding and knows im not scamming. just some local scrubs are who i owe a good deal to. and they wont do shit to me.

yeh i hit bottom (not rock bottom) quick. that's how i roll i guess. classic case of why i CAN'T even have one drink. a sip leads to a snort and then to a spike in a matter of days. horrible, but reality for me. my progression into this was like i never even stopped. its true you pick up right where you left off.

listen, i appreciate everyones words and i know i'm being a complete asshole by not taking advice and following through with all your experience and help. all your support means the world to me. ive got a lot of people pulling for me right now... unfortunately my own family has completely given up. hearing, seeing you guys rising to the occasion for me is seeing light at the end of the tunnel even when everything right now is black. but unfortunately addiction for me is not as easy as you think. my last bender which was 6 years ago landed me comatose in a hospital for 13 days. i only hope that i don't end up there but "rock bottom" really is "rock bottom" for this guy. getting in trouble with parents, losing money, losing home, losing everything physical is not enough for me. i'll be ready when i'm ready.

like i said its not about the girl at this point. it's about the disease, the addiction, the sickness, the lifestyle. and although im using "disease" as a crutch for me actions... i'd like to see anyone on here try to just stop heroin/coke cold turkey without a question and wihtout complication thereafter. i consider myself a tough fucker and i've been through much worse shit than this. but right now, in this moment... it's just hard to bring myself to do what i SHOULD be doing.

i'm going to keep posting on here. if anything to let you fruitcups know i'm alive. i'll find a computer no matter what. i can promise you that much.

Look in the f*****g mirror and stop your fight!

You won't accept support. You're headed for a casket. I've lost three folks in the program b/c they were full of shit like yourself and didn't want to live life on it's terms. Said it was "too hard" or didn't say shit and continued to live they way they wanted. You desperately try and fool yourself. So f*****g selfish man. Eats me up to read this post.

Call your f*****g sponsor man and quit being a self-centered ass! Let go of yourself and think of others! You're causing a wake of destruction in your life and in the life of everyone that cares for you.

You have a f*****g choice!

 

[juiced2damax]

All I ask is that you PM where you are...I WILL come meet you, that's it! Again FE1, PM where you are at...We'll chill, get a cup of coffee...I've got nothing to do all weekend so make sure to PM me...You will be fine just need to get off your high horse and face the inevitable. Till then I'd at least like to meet you brother!

 

[billet5]

I know from experience FE1, your not done till your done. No matter what anyone says to you. Its not a matter of will power. You know the deal, youve been around sobriety and meetings, you need to ask whatever your understanding of god is for help. The physical allergy is fcked but you can be done. You dont have to wait until you hit some new lower bottom than you ever have. Even if you dont think your done, go to a meeting. Loaded or not, go to a meeting. Even if you think you can go lower, Im sure there are plenty of free detoxes around you, go and detox, even if you think you arent done. Seriously, it is progressive as you have said. My wife and I are both sober, she has 13 years and I have 12, I have been telling her a little about what is going on with you. I am not a religous person but I am going to pray for you tonight before I go to bed. I hope to hear you get into detox...