Im about ready to give the fuck up

Bigkarch

Bigkarch

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Im about ready to give the fuck up

I have always been strong...been there for everyone...gave all I had money wise and gave all my strength....this hurts me to say...I dont have much left in me... I lost everything....I lost my job, retirement, and now my fiance...she cursed me as she left...fuck...I dont have much left in me....I am at my end......my mother came over and we got into a fight...she left crying...Im really not good....plz say a prayer for me..
 
spanky

spanky

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BK, you're in my prayers. You're not the only one struggling right now. There's got to be a bright spot somewhere. Keep your head up. You're one of the sharpest guys on the boards!
 
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A.k.

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yo bro

Not only will you be in my prayers I want to say this, Its from some poem (Tomorrow will be a brighter day, but you have to live through to the next day, to see the light.) Dont drink bro it will make you more depressed best thing you could do it try to sleep or go to a spot you like the best and hang out there taking it all in. If it gets to the point were you feel its over pick up a phone and call a help line or go to a hospital, this is not worth your life...Take care of yourself BK we all love you here.
 
juaneye

juaneye

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Remember BK, there is no help in the bottle. I know you are down now, but I want to see you get back up and kick life in the nuts. All this negative in your life at the moment will in the long run make you a stronger individual. Look at that big Hungarian in the mirrior, make that s.o.b. get back on his feet and fight for his place in this old cruel world. We're all pulling for you here BK.
 
thick

thick

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Lot of guys going through rough patches. I just picture grizzly in his leather chaps and always gives me a smile. . Or some of ians stories lol WE all have a lot to live for
 
d-red

d-red

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well..i`m not gonna sugar coat this. YOU NEED TO QUIT DRINKING,MAN.

nothing good will happen until you stop. get professional help. and stick to it.

i hope you make the right decision.
 
Vicious Cycle

Vicious Cycle

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Bigkarch said:
I have always been strong...been there for everyone...gave all I had money wise and gave all my strength....this hurts me to say...I dont have much left in me... I lost everything....I lost my job, retirement, and now my fiance...she cursed me as she left...fuck...I dont have much left in me....I am at my end......my mother came over and we got into a fight...she left crying...Im really not good....plz say a prayer for me..
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You are self distructive.

Tell me friend - How does one knows the joys of life?
 
KingGuss

KingGuss

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Hey BK. Your situation is shitty and I am truly sorry that you are going through this. Shitty and tragic because all of this is avoidable.

You and I have spoken a few times in private about these matters but not much has been done on your part to recover. You are not "special, unique or different" when it comes to this disease or whatever you call it. It will kill you just as easily as it will kill me or the next drunk/druggie.

Get help immediately(in patient, out patient, aa, whatever). You can pm me here, OLM or if you still have my email addys please use them. I have friends in recovery all over and it might be better to have someone local to help you get going. At this point what could it hurt???

I will pray that you do the one thing everyone knows (except you) will save your life.

KG
 
billet5

billet5

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BK, I have been having a really tough time too. Like the roughest in the last 14 years of my sobriety and I will tell you exactly what works for me since you too are an alcoholic. Dont drink and GO TO A MEETING. That is the only advice I can give, seriously. If you do that, you WILL be ok. If you dont, you probably wont. Im dead serious. BK, go to a meeting and keep going one day at a time, its had to be one hour at a time for me for the past couple of months.
 
juaneye

juaneye

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THL said:
Hey Karch, you still here brother?
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and leaving the bottle to the babies? remember your liver! no sense in "living hard, dieing young and leaving a beautiful corpse" let's do our best to live old and training better.;)


p.s. i'm at over 21 years sober BK, and i just had one of the toughest weeks in all that time, wanting to get friggen blasted.....but i chose not to return to my ways of old. every day we have to make the "choice" to stay sober man.
 
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Oldtimer

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juaneye said:
p.s. i'm at over 21 years sober BK, and i just had one of the toughest weeks in all that time, wanting to get friggen blasted.....but i chose not to return to my ways of old. every day we have to make the "choice" to stay sober man.
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Words of wisdom. Just take it one day at a time.
 
thick

thick

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damn billet didn't know u were also going through tough times now. Knew u had some stuff with the missus. Hope everything is alright with you all!
 
billet5

billet5

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thick said:
damn billet didn't know u were also going through tough times now. Knew u had some stuff with the missus. Hope everything is alright with you all!
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Thanks, I'll be ok. I always am, its just getting from point A to point B that is the rough part. It doesnt help that I base my actions on how I feel, well....actually I base my thinking on how I feel, I kind of know better not to act most of the time. Hope everyone is doing ok these days. I havent really had a place I call "home" with my computer setup in quite a while, so I havent been on the boards as much. I will hopefully have a place in about two weeks and get things back to normal.
 
FTW

FTW

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billet5 said:
Thanks, I'll be ok. I always am, its just getting from point A to point B that is the rough part. It doesnt help that I base my actions on how I feel, well....actually I base my thinking on how I feel, I kind of know better not to act most of the time. Hope everyone is doing ok these days. I havent really had a place I call "home" with my computer setup in quite a while, so I havent been on the boards as much. I will hopefully have a place in about two weeks and get things back to normal.
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Goddamn!


And I thought I was the only nomad homeless couch grinder on the board right now. Not a comfortable feeling but still has a nice feeling of unrestricted freedom. I wouldnt mind to have the guts J2M had and just shuffle it all and move to a new state,,, "minus the gay porn":p

I dont think I have ever had my back slammed against the wall so many times like in the last 4 month period. But like everything else... it shall pass.
 
XX75

XX75

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Ya just try to think about today, not tomorrow or yesterday. I had a guy tell me one time, and it helped me- "for every dark night, there will come the morning". Hang in there brother.................
 
billet5

billet5

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XX75 said:
Ya just try to think about today, not tomorrow or yesterday. I had a guy tell me one time, and it helped me- "for every dark night, there will come the morning". Hang in there brother.................
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I'm just getting sick of the dark mornings I have been having lately. I had another day today where i just couldnt stop crying. Fucking irritating. So much fear I guess from all the shit in my life. I wont be getting a place anytime soon, so I will probably continue being irregular on the board. Just cant risk not being able to give my ex the money she needs to support our kids. I hope this all lets up soon.
 
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