never thought this would happen...

[fighteveryone]

never thought this would happen...

so who came over my place lastnight pretty unexpected? you can take a guess.

anyways, we talked for about 4 hours. made peace on a lot of issues. we cried, we laughed, we let out some pent up anger. we both decided that our lives are miserable and unmanageable without each other by each others' side.

she told me as long as i'm sober we can give this thing a triumphant shot.

 

[spanky]

Wow, that came out of no where! It's good that you guys hashed some things out regardless if it ends up working or not.

 

[Preacher]

Hey man that sounds awsome I hope she's a strong women and can help....

 

[TenMan]

After the shit she put you through???!!!

You must like the lash...there's more of it in store for you from her.

Good luck

TenMan

 

[s7v7n]

After the shit she put you through???!!!

You must like the lash...there's more of it in store for you from her.

Good luck

TenMan

I agree - don't see her changing that quickly - watch your back.

 

[fighteveryone]

alright. alright. alright.

first and foremost, her reasoning behind telling my parents about my drug use which spurred the shitparade was because she actually gave a shit whether i lived or died. she knows me better than anyone on this planet and she knows where my drug use has taken me in the past. but of course i never saw it... i took it as her being spiteful and badmouthed the shit out of her. she told me flatout yesterday that even if it meant me never speaking to her again for life... if what she did helped save my life somehow then that's fine. she wasnt about to watch me kill myself with the guilt that she didnt do anything to make me stop.

 

[Vicious Cycle]

so who came over my place lastnight pretty unexpected? you can take a guess.

anyways, we talked for about 4 hours. made peace on a lot of issues. we cried, we laughed, we let out some pent up anger. we both decided that our lives are miserable and unmanageable without each other by each others' side.

she told me as long as i'm sober we can give this thing a triumphant shot.

looking back i think a large part of my change of attitude/demeanor was related to me dropping on of my meds. i was prescribed Wellbutrin and Effexor for depression and anxiety disorder (partly social anxiety disorder) many years ago. the Effexor had given me sexual side effects so i dropped it awhile back. i never felt like it made any difference anyways. well judging by when things started to go aloof... i can see that was around the time i dropped the Effexor.

I hope you go back on your meds.

 

[Vicious Cycle]

alright. alright. alright.

first and foremost, her reasoning behind telling my parents about my drug use which spurred the shitparade was because she actually gave a shit whether i lived or died. she knows me better than anyone on this planet and she knows where my drug use has taken me in the past. but of course i never saw it... i took it as her being spiteful and badmouthed the shit out of her. she told me flatout yesterday that even if it meant me never speaking to her again for life... if what she did helped save my life somehow then that's fine. she wasnt about to watch me kill myself with the guilt that she didnt do anything to make me stop.

I thought the drinking/drug use was a result of the break up, not the cause

i'm drunk. i just couldnt bear the pain of knowing the love of my life has found a new man.

so much for sobriety. two days shy of 6 years. pathetic.

 

[fighteveryone]

boy VC you certainly like to pick apart every thing i post. to be honest, its annoying as shit.

 

[Vicious Cycle]

boy VC you certainly like to pick apart every thing i post. to be honest, its annoying as shit.

...........

 

[s7v7n]

Bwahahahahahaha

 

[d-red]

ok.....thats GREAT NEWS. are you sober????? no more alcohol???????
to be with her....you have to knock out the booze

 

[fighteveryone]

ok.....thats GREAT NEWS. are you sober????? no more alcohol???????
to be with her....you have to knock out the booze

havent drank since last thursday night.

 

[d-red]

havent drank since last thursday night.

really????!!!!! i hope so!!!!! that a boy!!!!!!!

 

[FTW]

Dont get pissed man but i kinda put a guilt trip on her.
She seemed to be the one person you needed most in your life so i done the best i could to help you guys patch things up.

BTW: There is a good chance i will be in NYC in a month or so. If i do make the trip then we will catch a concert or two.

 

[M FREAKY]

BTW: There is a good chance i will be in NYC in a month or so. If i do make the trip then we will catch a concert or two.

I don't think that would be a good idea for a red neck, I smell A$$ beating

 

[FTW]

I don't think that would be a good idea for a red neck, I smell A$$ beating

Yeah i know, I would be like Snake Pliskin in the movie : Escape From New York.

Maybe since i gave fair warning they can be more alert so it will be more fair for them.

MF for a white boy ive been threw some bad spots of town all over North America. The most crazy shit was the week i spent alone in Juarez Mexico and could only speak enough spanish to get me killed.

 

[juiced2damax]

Great news about the sober part, hope you hold onto your sobriety when and if things get rough again with the girly...On another note...LMK if you make it out to NYC FTW and we'll all get together!!

 

[M FREAKY]

Great news about the sober part, hope you hold onto your sobriety when and if things get rough again with the girly...On another note...LMK if you make it out to NYC FTW and we'll all get together!!

Juicedpink2damax Don't forget about me, FTW there are allot Gay Clubs in Manhattan just bring your pennies jar and it’s going to be a long night

 

[fighteveryone]

Dont get pissed man but i kinda put a guilt trip on her.
She seemed to be the one person you needed most in your life so i done the best i could to help you guys patch things up.

please elaborate on that. i sent you a PM.