Can't help ya. I was going to not drink until next weekend and Friday hit, got to work(second job) and was struck with a massive desire for beer. I didn't even try to fight it, just gave in. But I didn't drink that much, so that counts, right?
But, you, much like this girl I care(d) about significantly, are in a different place. You have a liver disease, so don't be a dipshit!