and to add to the fun...

[fighteveryone]

and to add to the fun...

i was taking 800mg test enth ew and 100mg masteron daily when this shit hit the fan. also 5iu GH and T4. i fell off my test injections when i started relapsing. when my ex told my rents that i was using shit and they looted my apartment they found all my gear including my test, masteron, slin, and 2 kits of jinos... and my ancillaries. so i'm coming off cycle cold turkey and i gotta say it sucks! i'm breaking out, getting emotional for no reason, and my sex drive is like... negative. it seems my thyroid is rebounding too. i'm getting "the itch" too which leads me to believe i'll have a nice new set of tits when this is over. a friend on here offered to help me, but the only mailing addy i have is my office one and even though i handle all the mail i'm hesitant on using it for shit.

just thought i'd vent more. lol.

 

[Grizzly]

Quite frankly, if I were you, I would storm my parents house and demand money and/or my shit back.

 

[juiced2damax]

Yeah bro, get some of your shit back and tell them that you were clean and sober when on the juice and explain to them if they will listen.

 

[M FREAKY]

F1, I truly believe you need to take break from this entire BS, get yourself together back on track; this is not the best and the right time to be using AAS it will make thing allot worse your are not healed from this . Once you situate yourself few months down road then you consider go back on it,,,,,

 

[fighteveryone]

F1, I truly believe you need to take break from this entire BS, get yourself together back on track; this is not the best and the right time to be using AAS it will make thing allot worse your are not healed from this . Once you situate yourself few months down road then you consider go back on it,,,,,

i wasnt suggesting to go right back on. im just saying that ending all that shit cold turkey is running hell on me right now and will probably only get worse as the long acting test continues to run out.

 

[FTW]

i wasnt suggesting to go right back on. im just saying that ending all that shit cold turkey is running hell on me right now and will probably only get worse as the long acting test continues to run out.

Yep , welcome back from the land of the Gods. I am more of an asshole off cycle rather than when i am on. Smacking the wall is a true reality check that were all mortal.

 

[Finisher]

I don't recommend "Storming" but something close might do the trick. Get your ancillaries back and start your PCT. AS don't help sobriety if there's instability. Seen a close friend loose it after getting his year chip while "on".

Coming off will calm ya down a bit and might stop your head from running. Had you ever gone as high as 800mg's Test with 100mg's Mast ED? 100mg's Mast ED seems pretty damn high. Just me though.........

How's it going today?

 

[fighteveryone]

I don't recommend "Storming" but something close might do the trick. Get your ancillaries back and start your PCT. AS don't help sobriety if there's instability. Seen a close friend loose it after getting his year chip while "on".

Coming off will calm ya down a bit and might stop your head from running. Had you ever gone as high as 800mg's Test with 100mg's Mast ED? 100mg's Mast ED seems pretty damn high. Just me though.........

How's it going today?

well either way... everything gear and ancillary wise even the vitamins i had in my apartment went striaght into the garbage. getting them back is impossible. imagine that... like $2K worth of gear straight into the garbage. sucks.

i havent even been eating THAT bad and i'm already getting a spare tire. probably from the estrogen and lack of T4 i was taking. plus i havent been to a gym in 2+ weeks. my gym membership was cancelled too since my parents assumed i was getting my gear from there. bullshit. going to a gym was what helped me get clean 6 years ago and i don't even have that now. haha.

 

[FTW]

Man i would be pissed about loosing the GH , then again i never could afford that shit. You cant really hold that against your ex though, she done what in her eyes was the best thing that would help you. Even if it wasnt in the right way of holding your trust ,she had you in mind. If you had the choice would you want the time back you spent with her or the substance?

 

[fighteveryone]

Man i would be pissed about loosing the GH , then again i never could afford that shit. You cant really hold that against your ex though, she done what in her eyes was the best thing that would help you. Even if it wasnt in the right way of holding your trust ,she had you in mind. If you had the choice would you want the time back you spent with her or the substance?

even though i despise her right now... i'd rather have her back without question. this past weekend i cleaned out my apartment, everything she gave me as a gift and everything we had together i packed up and dropped off at the front of her house. i did it for two reasons... A. spite. B. because i'm better off not seeing the memories. i'll tell you what part of me feels pretty good about that. kinda like a weight was lifted off my back.

 

[FTW]

even though i despise her right now... i'd rather have her back without question. this past weekend i cleaned out my apartment, everything she gave me as a gift and everything we had together i packed up and dropped off at the front of her house. i did it for two reasons... A. spite. B. because i'm better off not seeing the memories. i'll tell you what part of me feels pretty good about that. kinda like a weight was lifted off my back.

But still, if you both were still together and you did not let nothing come between you, I dont think that you would be in a big as mess as you are now, right or wrong?

You cant hold a grudge toward her for thinking she was doing what was best for you. You can lay fault where the two of you was not more open about things and whats steps to make and not make for the longevity of the relationship.

 

[juiced2damax]

I thought your gym went bankrupt and thats why your membership was cancelled. Probably was the best thing to do was drop that stuff off at your ex's place.

 

[shaqdeezl]

like $2K worth of gear straight into the garbage. sucks.

I have to ask a meddling question: How did you have $2K worth of gear in the house but not make good to those you are due?

Even if they weren't the compounds you promised it would have been something to protect your good name.

 

[Vicious Cycle]

I have to ask a meddling question: How did you have $2K worth of gear in the house but not make good to those you are due?

Even if they weren't the compounds you promised it would have been something to protect your good name.

*VC sits back in comfy chair with bag of popcorn*

 

[fighteveryone]

I have to ask a meddling question: How did you have $2K worth of gear in the house but not make good to those you are due?

Even if they weren't the compounds you promised it would have been something to protect your good name.

thats a round number. my own personal stash built up from hording since every source is going to the shitter lately. the only person i owe shit to is SUPERBEE... see i said it. i owe him 3 bottles of regular (not peg) MGF and $30 cash. in exchange he gave me a $20 bottle of Novolog and a bunch of Synthroid. its not like i got cash from the deal. both items were for myself.

believe me or not... whatever. i could be a dick and start scamming people to make money back and to support my habit... but im not. i'm better than that. and i wish that even in the state im in now people would believe me and where im at right now. i'm not here to get sympathy from you guys. im here because you guys are giving me support and i apprecaite it.

 

[fighteveryone]

But still, if you both were still together and you did not let nothing come between you, I dont think that you would be in a big as mess as you are now, right or wrong?

You cant hold a grudge toward her for thinking she was doing what was best for you. You can lay fault where the two of you was not more open about things and whats steps to make and not make for the longevity of the relationship.

very true. i cant argue with this.

 

[fighteveryone]

I thought your gym went bankrupt and thats why your membership was cancelled. Probably was the best thing to do was drop that stuff off at your ex's place.

it did. it was just the fact that they were going to cancel it anyways. either way... i dont have a gym now.

 

[shaqdeezl]

thats a round number. my own personal stash built up from hording since every source is going to the shitter lately. the only person i owe shit to is SUPERBEE... see i said it. i owe him 3 bottles of regular (not peg) MGF and $30 cash. in exchange he gave me a $20 bottle of Novolog and a bunch of Synthroid. its not like i got cash from the deal. both items were for myself.

believe me or not... whatever. i could be a dick and start scamming people to make money back and to support my habit... but im not. i'm better than that. and i wish that even in the state im in now people would believe me and where im at right now. i'm not here to get sympathy from you guys. im here because you guys are giving me support and i apprecaite it.

I see. I was just confused by the thread you started at OLM a couple of weeks ago entitled 'Attn: To the people I owe gear to' or something like that. Just by the title I assumed it was more than one person. I'm sure Phreezer and everyone else will be relieved to know it's only one guy. I know I am.

I will admit to you I don't believe everything you've said. Just last week you claimed to have slept in your car parked in a McDonald's parking lot and this week you are making a valiant attempt to raise money in order to keep from getting evicted. Whatever the case, I believe you are troubled. The jury is still out on whether or not you are man enough to overcome this obstacle. We shall see.

I'm not sure luck will be of any assistance but I wish it for you anyway.

 

[shaqdeezl]

Then I go back and read your original post. It still says 'people'. But it's just SuperBee?

so all the gear i had in my room that i had to sell is gone. i owed gear to people and now i'm in even more debt than before.

 

[fighteveryone]

Then I go back and read your original post. It still says 'people'. But it's just SuperBee?

superbee is the only "online" fellow. and ive been in constant contact with him. i just shot him another email yesterday. i owe 200 dbols to a local folk but he's being very understanding about my situation.

as far as the "other" guys i inferred to post about... they are all taken care of. they were taken care of after i posted that thread, which was before my apt was even looted. i feel bad but the only cat i have left hanging is Superbee.

the sleeping in/getting changed in mcd's parking lot was because i didnt want to be at my liviing space knowing my parents and god knows who else were there waiting for me. i mean would you want to be where your fmaily was knowing they just found a shitload of gear, drug paraphernalia, empty bottles of liquor, weapons, and... well sex toys and pornography? right now they think their son is a drug addicted homicidal sex fiend. shit i felt like i was in highschool again having my parents go through my own room. i just didnt want to be there. i knew my dad needed time to cool off. i mean christ my dad is my own boss and my bros are my superiors at my job and none of them has really even spoken a word or acknowledged my presence since the shit hit the fan.