Fukin Surgey

[FTW]

Fukin Surgey

Ok my knees has got so bad that i gota get something done even if it is scope surgery. BUT thats gona be like using a bandaid for a gunshot. The problem i have is very serious from what a sports ortho Dr. told me and the surgery would be brutal and then if it works i would need a total replacement afterwards.That surgery will cost bookoos of cash also ,so i hope that the ortho im seeing now can atleast give me a lil relef for a year or so.

Either way i cant aford the sports Dr. that i need and have got to gut it out.

So im sure alot wont agree with me but im gona run one more cycle before i do go under the knife. Yes i know all my gains will be gone after surgey but dealing with the depression of fucked up wheels and the chance of not walking the same again is something i cant explain in words.

I would much rather do a cycle than take somekinda shit like zoloft or some other kind of anti-depression that turns me into a zomie.
Atleast with AAS i do feal better about myself and the depression is gone while on "yes i also know it will be back when im off" But then ill use somekinda anti- depressiant when off.

Either way since its both knees im gona have alot of off time and i dont see myself lifting heavy for awhile, not even upper body. This is a realy tough choice and what worries me is surgery could make it worse than better , but somthing has gota give and soon!

Im still over two months away from the first surgery and its already fuckin with my head. Im trying to look on the bright side as to where as if it works then all that pain will be gone and maybe ill be able to do squats again.

I just needed to vent i guess.
I try and stay away from all the pitty party post but this one is eating at me big time.

 

[Chopper]

Have u thought about a low dose of EQ or Deca. Say 1.5mg/lb of BW??

Might help out a bit. I knew you had bad knees man but had no idea they were that bad!! Tuff it out man. I'm sure it sucks but it's gonna be a rough road

 

[swede74]

Hey, vent all you want...there will come a time when we all will vent about something...and I'm sure you will be there for us when we do. Both knees replaced? Sorry you may eventually have to go through that...but modern medicine is pretty impressive today...twenty years ago, it would be a different story...I'm assuming insurance is going to cover the surgeries?

 

[FTW]

Have u thought about a low dose of EQ or Deca. Say 1.5mg/lb of BW??

Might help out a bit. I knew you had bad knees man but had no idea they were that bad!! Tuff it out man. I'm sure it sucks but it's gonna be a rough road

Yeah man its that bad if not worse. And yes Deca seems the only thing that gives me some relief but me and EQ never got along all that good. Ive not tried aflutop yet but have heard alot of good things about it.

This is the problem im going threw is where i have sevre runners knee and flat footed +knock knee'd on top of that, where i was active all my life its realy took its toll. Its not so much my knee's as it is leg bones has shifted and caused both patela to be at an angle on the side of my leg. I cant remember the term off the top of my head but ill look threw my med records and see if i can find it.

And yes insurance will cover the scope surgery but not the one that the sports Dr. recomended where the leg bone gets detached and resized and then atached back on so the leg so it is straight and not twisted or deformed.
Workers comp will cover that surgery but only on one leg. So thats kind of a lost cause if i cant get both fixed because its gona be 15-20k per surgery.

Ive had like 6 dislocations between both knee's and not the normal kind you can pop back in yourself. When mine dislocates it sounds like a shot gun blast and it locks my leg. I have a high pain threshold but this shit hurts like a hog bite.
Anyways the sports dr says its scare tisue thats keeping my knee's in place and i gota wear the damn stone cold steve austin knee braces. Which is no real big deal as long as they stay in place but the pain can get unreal at times. And yes im dependant on pain killers but IMO there is a fine line between dependacy and addiction.

Like the sports Dr said the sooner i had the surgery the better because the older i get then the longer time im looking at recovery.

I guess im kinda fucked w/o a kiss in away and you guys know i dont like being the serious type so ill end this post like this.
A one legged man stands a better chance at an ass kicking contest than i do.

 

[-0000-]

Keep your head up brother.
After these surgeries hopefully you will have significant improvement..

If you need anything just ask!!

Best Wishes

Respectfully
Wylie

 

[HALO]

Sorry to hear FTW.The only thing I can really say bro is that I've had my right shoulder completly rebuilt twice.The first time was bad and had to go through 22months of pt afterwards and reached a stationary point where there were no good results whatsoever.
The 2nd time I found an amazing doc who specializes in shoulders and litterally was moving my shoulder around later that day and required very minimal pain medication afterwards.I was required to have artificial parts put in,my rotator cuff is completly plastic.
My point to you my friend is this.Yes there will be some depression,obviously.Your body has just been severly traumatized and your mind set on your "possible"long term restrictions.BUT,you never know w/the technology today and as strong a person as you are,the awesome support from the brothers here,You'll pull through better than new.
We'll be here bro!!

 

[FTW]

Sorry to hear FTW.The only thing I can really say bro is that I've had my right shoulder completly rebuilt twice.The first time was bad and had to go through 22months of pt afterwards and reached a stationary point where there were no good results whatsoever.
The 2nd time I found an amazing doc who specializes in shoulders and litterally was moving my shoulder around later that day and required very minimal pain medication afterwards.I was required to have artificial parts put in,my rotator cuff is completly plastic.
My point to you my friend is this.Yes there will be some depression,obviously.Your body has just been severly traumatized and your mind set on your "possible"long term restrictions.BUT,you never know w/the technology today and as strong a person as you are,the awesome support from the brothers here,You'll pull through better than new.
We'll be here bro!!

My brother i cant say thx enough for taking the time to listen and understand.
Its funny how a few words can pick a person up out of the shitter, but you just did.
My worst fear is im gona go threw what you did with your shoulder and have some quack screw my knee's up worse than they already are.
Since you have done been threw all this then you know what a downer not having full use of a body part feals like. If that wont take the wind out of your sails i dont know what will.
I hope sometime i can help you out when needed. Financialy I might not be on top of the world but as far as loyalty and honesty goes, id like to think im not poor in those traits. If you ever need my help " within reason" it will be there and thats a promise.

Once again thx alot my friend.

 

[HALO]

My brother i cant say thx enough for taking the time to listen and understand.
Its funny how a few words can pick a person up out of the shitter, but you just did.
My worst fear is im gona go threw what you did with your shoulder and have some quack screw my knee's up worse than they already are.
Since you have done been threw all this then you know what a downer not having full use of a body part feals like. If that wont take the wind out of your sails i dont know what will.
I hope sometime i can help you out when needed. Financialy I might not be on top of the world but as far as loyalty and honesty goes, id like to think im not poor in those traits. If you ever need my help " within reason" it will be there and thats a promise.

Once again thx alot my friend.

Anytime my brotha FTW,ANYTIME.Feel free to hit me up any time when you need or want to talk.It really does help pull a person out of the dumps especially when going through something traumatic,especially talking to someone who's been through it.I'm hearing some of my story picked you up some.And hey my friend I would never ask you for any financial help,but I do like the sound of jumpin on some of that loyalty and honesty.Thats the most valuable thing a person has to offer and all that really matters,You have mine as well,for any reson,anytime.Let me know if I can help in anyway my friend.